Chapter II: Stepping in Quarter Life Crisis

I would like to give a proper introduction of my life here. I am Ardel, born on 18th December 1996 in Jakarta. I went to private local school close to my home. Then in 2014 I studied Computer Science and Statistics at BINUS University. I did pretty well at school. I got the best graduate award in 2019. I am lucky I am good with numbers and logic. I am above average is what I could say. 

I currently work for the best IT Consulting in the world. I have a decent paying job. I do what I can do, for people who needs my capabilities, and earn a good sum of money. Everything seems so perfect even my team lead said I did a great job and it was above his expectation. The reality kicks me hard, I don't enjoy the process. I find myself not happy. I start my day with a zombie face, just like people I saw in the bus I shared here. Although appreciation sparks some happiness inside of me, it does not stay forever. When I told my lead I find myself repeating the same waking up daily with no meaning and purpose, he said "well that is called a job". Kind of disappointing answer, but I don't judge. People see things differently. 

I think I am here more than this. The problem is I don't know what I am doing with my life. I don't know my purpose. I don't know what my passion is. I don't have vision. I am lost and trying to find my way. All I know is I want to have financial freedom. I want an early retirement where I generate sufficient income for living without having to work actively. I was planning to buy a house and lend it but I am far from this, making me still wandering figuring out how. 

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